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I do. I do feel lonely. I’m just here lying on my bed crying. The size of this house makes it even emptier than it is. I can’t remember why they have spent too much for this house. I can’t even remember the last time I felt it was my home. I have my dogs but they seem to be depressed too for being caged in this huge house. I’m staring at them right now, they’re just there in their bed too staring into the vast nothingness of this house. I have loving parents but I can’t feel any of that warmth from here all the way over the other side of the world. I have playful brothers but I can’t hear their laugh from here, I think they’re just as lonely as me on their houses now, or maybe they’re keeping themselves busy to forget how hard it can be. I have a romantic boyfriend but I can’t feel intimacy all the way over here because he’s miles away and the willingness to communicate is just fading away. I have friends, many of them actually, but I can’t giggle right now for their punchlines all the way from the barrier of our desire to just talk, because all of it have passed away. I am sinking in the depths of my bed knowing tomorrow when I wake up I have to go to work for nothing. It seems that everybody had given up on being together. I am so lonely. I do. I do feel lonely…
Oops! I have to learn to cook/bake to complete this list! :)
hoping for the best 😌🙏 again with the #selfie ?! 😆😅😐 sorry po. 😇
Hi. IDK where to start. :’(
I’m in a life crisis now. I dont know where life is taking me.
Unfortunately, I haven’t landed a job yet.
Sabi nga ng pinsan ko, ano ka ba sen, formality na nga lang yang pagttrabaho mo. Pero, kahit sabihin nating hindi ko kailangan ng pera, kailangan ko ng trabaho para makakuha ng lisensya back home.. but get this, may schoolmate ako nung HS na nurse na ngayon sa AD and kabatch ko lang sya grumaduate ng college.
So I pm’d my dad that I can’t find a job and it’s hard for me here kc ayoko naman gamitin yung name ng backer ko just for me to have a job. family matters. He replied, that’s it. tara na dito, go home sa bakasyon with kyle. (he’s implying summer vacation)
Then when I was about to go to sleep, my phone rang. It was my mom telling me to go on skype.
There sinabi nya sakin na she needs us to go home for christmas break.
( side note: bumagsak ako sa exam ) dahil daw dito, I need to unwind daw dahil sa stress ko, kailangan ko muna daw umuwi magshopping, go on a cruise, usual vacation stuff. I’m glad hindi nagalit ang parents ko, instead they were hopeful and pitied me, so they gave me everything they could to make me a little more hopeful too.
Problem is, I might stay there for good. hindi naman sa ayaw ko, pero napaaga lang. In a span of a day nagbago ang coarse ng planned future ko.
(See, Aaron and I had a deal. Just like what we did in high school, we plan to stay together sa isang country. My plan was to work here for two years while waiting for him to finish his studies then go back home with him.)
pero nasabi ko naman kay Aaron, alam nya yung pinagdadaanan ko daily, alam nya yung feeling ko na leftout ako, sya yung tinatanong ko, bakit sila ganun, bakit sya ganito na, bakit bakit baki?!.. isa lang lagi sabi nya: lahat tayo may kaniya kaniyang paths.
So he was okay with it , me going back to UAE, sabi nya magskype na lang tayo, and sabi nya dun daw sya magOJT.
Pero ngayon pa lang, nafifeel ko na yung loneliness. Bakit?! This is what I wanted! I wanted to go home!!!
But I guess home is not home when people that surrounded you is no longer there. A place is not a home unless the people you call “home” are not in it.
I just hope everything will be okay. :(
I’m a bum. bow.
Sobrang frustrated ako. Sa lahat ng bagay actually.
Family, Studies, Work, Lovelife, Spiritual. Lahat yan, unstable. Wala akong support system ngayong mawawala na naman sakin si Aaron.
I would like him to stay. Stay for good. Pero things are just not meant to happen. Sa lahat naman ng aspeto ok kami, pero kaya naman kami nagsstruggle sa relasyon namin kasi we are striving for what’s ideal. He wants to give me the best he can offer kaya naman kami mahihiwalay eh.
Basta hindi ko na alam anong gagawin ko.
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#Fact- There isn’t a quick cure for a broken heart. It is process full of different emotions that we must go through. The longer we hold onto the past the longer the process will take. Know that you will get through it. Though we must go through God will be with us every step of way healing us and putting the broken pieces back together. In due time, the pain that you are feeling will subside. Keep holding on to God! Trust Him!
Here are a few encouraging Scriptures for the brokenhearted to meditate on:
The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit. -Psalm 34:18
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. -Psalm 147:3
My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. -Psalm 73:26
Cast your burden on the Lord, and He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved. -Psalm 55:22
Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. -Matthew 11:28-30
Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. -John 14:27
Therefore let those who suffer according to the will of God commit their souls to Him in doing good, as to a faithful Creator. -1 Peter 4:19
Do not remember the former things, Nor consider the things of old. -Isaiah 43:18
And I heard a loud voice from heaven saying, “Behold, the tabernacle of God is with men, and He will dwell with them, and they shall be His people. God Himself will be with them and be their God. And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.” -Revelation 21:3-4
Ladies In Waiting-Psalm 37:1-9